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I can never count just how much I've been dissapointed all my life. The feeling of your hopes beingcrush to nothing, leaving you all helpless and vulnerable at the same time, where your tears would eventually fall down your cheeks and not a minute to soon, you'll be breaking down.
For how many times have I ever done it? I can never know but i'm sure of one thing, the more i am dissapointed, the more i become numb and my relationship to people became nothing but a mere wall for myself, leaving me to show another side of me.
The side who would smile and say its fine even though inside, i was already killing myself to be able to prepare myself to become more numb each passing days
Promises are nothing more for me. I've already concluded that its nothing but faux words.
And because of that, trusting even the people who should be close to you since before is broken into pieces everytime they made a promise they can't kept.
Its really hard to act fine instead of just staying in one room to cry.
Really, this year is npthing more but a faux year for me. Everything is nothing more than stupidity!
I hate how everything just makes me happy to end up being crushed.
For how many times have I ever done it? I can never know but i'm sure of one thing, the more i am dissapointed, the more i become numb and my relationship to people became nothing but a mere wall for myself, leaving me to show another side of me.
The side who would smile and say its fine even though inside, i was already killing myself to be able to prepare myself to become more numb each passing days
Promises are nothing more for me. I've already concluded that its nothing but faux words.
And because of that, trusting even the people who should be close to you since before is broken into pieces everytime they made a promise they can't kept.
Its really hard to act fine instead of just staying in one room to cry.
Really, this year is npthing more but a faux year for me. Everything is nothing more than stupidity!
I hate how everything just makes me happy to end up being crushed.
